Heyo, life is full of ups and down, just like roller coaster rides. Just embrace them and remember when you are down, soon you will have good times ahead of you. Just keep in faith in yourself and believe in the things that you doing, like building your career. Just be consistent and keep your focus on it. Once you gain the momentum, you are on your way up! you are not a failure at least you still have the option to choose to succeed and not just to survive. Hope you get yourself up fast and no longer waste time in some self-pity.