I find it is very difficult to let go and just treat mmed like it's non essential. Maybe it's because of all the effort that I put in for past 3.5 years of residency.
Ironically, I have already a job offer with a private GP group, and already have gdfm, so mmed isn't that impt for career progression for me.
It's the feeling that if you fail, all your efforts through residency is wasted, and you have just wasted 3.5 years of your life. And I will most likely retake next year, which means all my leave and life plans next year will need to be rearranged..