Dude, why be so hard on yourself here? Go back! You can live like a king back home!

Think about it: No stress. Good life. Pretty wife. Why choose a hard life that is full of competition with a total lack of acceptance here?

You claim to love this place, but actually you hate yourself for not obtaining what your 'friends' have achieved.

You must learn to accept, that you will lead a comfortable life of luxury. And it is within easy reach. All you have to do is to move back home. To your nice loving family.

There is absolutely no need to prove anything to anyone. Accept, and be yourself. Go home. That is where your life truly is!