Hi guys, I had a mental breakdown while I was working in ACN.
I couldn't program. Panic attack etc.

So I told my boss I wanted to quit because I can't. My mental health.
She wanted to help me. Etc. Ask me is it the pay etc.

I said no. I literally can't code anymore. My mind has broke.
I told her I need to to IMH and can't work anymore.

She thinks I'm joking. Anyway long story short. She managed to get me to go for unpaid leave 3 months.
But I didn't know then that if you take unpaid leave you give up your bonus.

So April I'm supposed to be back into office.
I tried to refresh my mind. Reading my old code etc.

And I just couldn't.
It's like my mind is shutdown. Actively trying to protect itself from a mental breakdown.

You know that feeling when you have to relearn 1 whole syllabus and your exam is next week and you can't understand anything?

Is my programming days over?
Am I broken?